"I will eat two thousand calories today"
...the vertigo is here, for day number three. It's quite tiring to feel this way.
Since my latest self-suggestions (deep breathing//repeated suggestions//...)
have been: "give me the courage to endure that which I cannot change" and above-I'm feeling optimistic. I even had the thought that I'll survive even if I get taped at IET. Not ideal, but fuck it...at least I know I'll lose weight that way!
What is it they'll do differently from me in this process?
-rigid adherence to the plan
-my self-esteem and self doubt won't play a part in the details of the plan as they do here. I get so down on myself, doubt myself so much under my current circumstances it's easy to change my daily plans. For example, "why not just eat this?"
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